lord knows i'm weak

all my preconceptions have been broken down

on a side note,

sometimes i'm too tired to tough it out. ya heard.

Jack Johnson - All At Once

all at once the world can overwhelm me
there's almost nothing you that you could tell me
that could ease my mind
which way will you run
when its always all around you
and the feelings lost and found you again
a feeling that we have no control

i give my gun away when its loaded

before you can (re-post)

[empty chairs]

And before you can get out of bed, you have to stop being so depressed.
And before you can stop being so depressed, you have to understand what depression is.
And before you can understand what depression is, you have to think clearly.

And before you can choose who that person is, you have to like someone.
And before you can like someone, you have to interact with someone.
And before you can interact with someone, you have to introduce yourself.
And before you can introduce yourself, you have to be in a social situation.
And before you can be in a social situation, you have to be invited to something somehow.
And before you can be invited to something somehow, you have to receive a telephone call from a friend.
And before you can receive a telephone call from a friend, you have to make a reputation for yourself as being sort of fun.
And before you can make a reputation for yourself as being sort of fun, you have to be noticeably fun on several different occasions.
And before you can be noticeably fun on several different occasions, you have to be fun once in the presence of two or more people.

And before you can want your psychological state to be altered, you have to recognize that your current psychological state is unsatisfactory.
And before you can recognize that your current psychological state is unsatisfactory, you have to grow tired of your lifestyle.
And before you can grow tired of your lifestyle, you have to repeat the same patterns over and over endlessly.
And before you can repeat the same patterns over and over endlessly, you have to lose a lot of your creativity.
And before you can lose a lot of your creativity, you have to stop reading books.
And before you can stop reading books, you have to think that you would benefit from reading less frequently.
And before you can think that you would benefit from reading less frequently, you have to be discouraged by the written word.
And before you can be discouraged by the written word, you have to read something that reinforces your insecurities.
And before you can read something that reinforces your insecurities, you have to have insecurities.
And before you can have insecurities, you have to be awake for part of the day.
And before you can be awake for part of the day, you have to feel motivation to wake up.
And before you can feel motivation to wake up, you have to dream of perfectly synchronized conversations with people you desire to talk to.
And before you can dream of perfectly synchronized conversations with people you desire to talk to, you have to have a general idea of what a perfectly synchronized conversation is.
And before you can have a general idea of what a perfectly synchronized conversation is, you have to watch a lot of movies in which people successfully talk to each other.
And before you can watch a lot of movies in which people successfully talk to each other, you have to have an interest in other people.

And before you can be emotionally wounded, you have to be treated badly by someone you think you care about while in a naive, vulnerable state.
And before you can be treated badly by someone you think you care about while in a naive, vulnerable state, you have to feel inferior to that person.

And before you can feel embarrassed about your real interests, you have to realize that your interests are different from other people's interests.
And before you can realize that your interests are different from other people’s interests, you have to be regularly misunderstood.
And before you can be regularly misunderstood, you have to be almost completely socially debilitated.
And before you can be almost completely socially debilitated, you have to be an outcast.
And before you can be an outcast, you have to be rejected by your entire group of friends.
And before you can be rejected by your entire group of friends, you have to be suffocatingly loyal to your friends.
And before you can be suffocatingly loyal to your friends, you have to be afraid of loss.
And before you can be afraid of loss, you have to lose something of value.
And before you can lose something of value, you have to realize that that thing will never change.

Chelsea Martin, "McDonalds Is Impossible" from No Posit, Volume 1. Copyright © 2008 by Chelsea Martin

re-posted from Achtung Baby!

Want you here tonight

your mouth
your mouth
your mind...

They say if you're looking there ain't nothing to find

[Market East Mirror]

Black Horse Motel - Here Goes

Wheres the feedback, turn up the gain
put these ghost stories to rest
and neutralize your pain
Do your worst or do your best,
its all the same
Here goes...
do you even remember my name?

Waiting to go home

[just passing through. view from the el, philadelphia]

Jack Johnson - Monsoon.
... they break like waves of sorrow always do
all in due time...

Jack Johnson - Angel
we share the same soul

Sublime - Badfish
and got no quarrels with God
ain't got no time to get old